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《分裂的对话》

彼此赤裸面对面 双目交叉
目睹我身上的疤 你尴尬吗
见证我泪珠滑落 心内疚吗
面对被你折磨的我如何闪躲

那天的恨是否还存在
折腾我后的你疲累吗
拥抱那颗疲惫的躯壳
流出的泪该怎么掩饰

没有谁没爱过
没有谁没伤过
没有谁没恨过
没有谁没痛过

最后那一吻温柔却尖锐
割破那颗铁打的心
拒绝你瞳孔闪烁的同情
摈废镜子里的我们

曾经以为你我是异体
各自活在自己的宇宙
如今发现我们的合体
你的伤造就如今的我

那天的恨是否还存在
折腾我后的你疲累吗
拥抱那颗疲惫的躯壳
流出的泪该怎么掩饰

为了你的空虚而孤单
为了你的孤单而寂寞
为了你的寂寞而难过
为了你的难过而崩裂

最后那一吻温柔却尖锐
割破那颗铁打的心
拒绝你瞳孔闪烁的同情
摈废镜子里的我们

曾经以为你我是异体
各自活在自己的宇宙
如今发现我们的合体
你的伤造就如今的我

最终才明白
口中的你是我
分裂的情绪
一个人的对话


《19天的折磨》

没想过我会有泪水
储蓄已久的回忆
在一瞬间被你捏碎

逃避也是一种勇气
没有人规定面对才是坚强
懦弱不是我的专长
泪水却是我唯一的筹码

痴狂的等待
疯狂的欲望
爆狂的恋爱

剥开所有伤口
撕烂一切回忆
嘲笑我眼角的变化
着疤痕是你的杰作

环绕在崩溃的边缘
我安静的呐喊
内心的无奈

-Her Story
AHR 2013
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
HDB organised its inaugural HDB Community Week in May 2012 to celebrate youth involvement in the communities as well as to spread our messages on neighbourliness. The week-long event was well received, with more than 30,000 residents participating in the events. The Amazing Heartland Race was one of the key events held during HDB Community Week 2012, and it aims to encourage participants to explore and discover the iconic landmarks and unique features of the towns they live and play in, and ultimately nurture a sense of attachment and pride to the towns. Encouraged by the positive feedback received, HDB will be organising the race again in June this year during HDB Community Week 2013.

The race consists of 5 mini-races, taking place concurrently and independently in 5 different zones in Singapore - Toa Payoh (Central), Yishun (North), Queenstown (South), Bedok (East) and Jurong (West).Through the race, participants will get a first-hand experience in discovering iconic food and landmarks in their towns and uncovering their town’s identity.

Two categories are available for participants to sign up, namely the school and open category. The school category is open to Secondary Schools and Tertiary Institutions while the open category is targeted at youths, families and neighbours. Students can register in groups of five and they will be competing with other school teams within the towns that they have signed up for.

The event details are as follows:
Date: Saturday, 1 June 2013
Time: 9am – 5pm
(Including Prize presentation)

Venues:
·Toa Payoh
·Queenstown
·Yishun
·Jurong
·Bedok

Categories:
·School – Secondary & Tertiary Students
·Open – Members of the public
Registration Fee: FOC

*T-shirts and race packs will be given to all participants

For more information, visit
www.hdb.gov.sg/heartlandbeat

安静的呐喊
♥9:12 AM

有形的翅膀 Cover
Wednesday, January 23, 2013


今天不经意听了自己的版本的《有形的翅膀》。回忆起那天是带着什么一个情绪唱出了那句“有时候我也会想要掉一些泪”;也回想起那天是在什么状况下写出尾段的那段话。说真的,起初唱这首歌我是在一个愤怒的心情下决定唱这首歌。

“有时候我也会想要掉一些泪”是这首歌中最能表达我心情的一句词。我总觉得即使自己在众人面前是嬉皮笑脸的,但每当我想回忆一些快乐片段,似乎会越想越难过。我觉得自己一直以来都从未像任何人公开我最真实的一面。我甚至搞不清楚我最真实的一面是什么。

我永远都不会忘记那天早上在她面前脱下面具,放声大哭。结果她只说我“无理取闹”。我问自己为什么当我想勇敢做自己,不想再伪装坚强时,却会被他人误解为“无理取闹”。或许是因为在众人面前我“坚强”久了,大家也自然而然的“习惯”我的坚强,所以只要一不小心变得稍微有点“懦弱”,就会被说是在“无理取闹”。

或许我永远也没办法让任何人看透最真实的自己。又或许那个“真实的自己”从来就没存在过。

话说回来,《有形的翅膀》是一首感谢“翅膀们”的歌。而这些“翅膀”指的就是陪在我们身边的亲朋好友。这首歌的副歌歌词描述着这些“翅膀”陪着自己走过最绝望的日子,陪着自己寻找希望。谢谢每一个陪我寻找希望的你。

安静的呐喊
♥4:19 AM

Saturday, January 05, 2013
"跟你在一起,我可以很放纵的做自己,毫无忌讳地言语,不许讨好谁。那是我最享受的自己。"- 从前从前,有个人爱我很久。但偏偏,风渐渐,把距离吹得好远。

"No matter what happened, you are still my beloved sister in Christ, and I would hate to lose a friend like you."
偶尔还是会忍不住想打听你的消息。换来的只有眼泪。

You're a brother that I'll never wanna lose. But everything seems like as though I've lost you since 15th Sept 2012. Everything just feels so retarded when we actually bother to think about it. It all ended with a FaceBook status and a misunderstanding. How blonde.

安静的呐喊
♥7:01 AM

Saturday, November 17, 2012
某晚,我对着天花板发呆。不知觉中眼角开始泛泪。卧在黑暗中痛哭了好久好久。那晚,我只知道自己很难过,却不知道自己在难过什么。濒临崩溃的情绪,随着流失的眼泪,我也渐渐失去意志,迷迷糊糊进入梦中的完美世界。

安静的呐喊
♥12:40 AM

Saturday, October 13, 2012
It's been a long while since the last time I've posted. And guess what.. My holidays are coming to an end soon :'(

I spent the first half of my holiday on my event/project. Yea. The mid-autumn festival at SengKang West. The remaining of my holidays were spent on filming, part time work and watching dramas. Haha.

This holiday is lasted for 7 weeks. Come to think of it, 7 weeks isn't that long after all. It's merely 49 days. Yet, many things have changed. Including “到此为止”.

I've been thinking about all the things that happened but none of this explains what led to “到此为止”. I guess we're just tired of this relationship bah. Love isn't something that can be maintained just by compromising with each other's needs, differences, flaws, etc. But then again, if love can be explain by words, then prolly that isn't love.

Whatever it is, things have ended. No more counting down, no more sweet messages, no more.. yea. No more everything.

Mid-Autumn festival night was really an unforgettable one. Being a mascot for the first time is really fun. Oh man!! I had to put on heavy make-up to fit the "beauty-ness" of Chang-Er. Lol. But the funny thing is that I've got no idea how to put on make up. Haha. Had to get my other project mates to help me with the make up.

Oh!!! Tell you what's the most hilarious part!! I look like some weird alien/ghost when i put on that make up with my normal "mortal" attire. But I look perfectly fine when I change into my "deity" Chang-Er costume. Lol!!!

The part where I enjoyed the most about being this mascot is that people treat & look me as though I'm some famous celebrity. Heeah. *lika boss yo~* People rush to snap a photo with you. Aunties and young kids. Uncles don't dare cause they feel embarrassed or something~ Lol. Haha.

The most ridiculous thing is that all the "ah-ma"s rush to touch me cause they believe by touching "Chang-Er" will bring them good luck & fortune. Hmmm.. Number 1, common sense should be able to tell you that I'm a mortal, a human. Number two, does Chang-Er even really exist??

Haiz.. It's okay. At least it makes them happy~ The event was definitely a success. Then number of attendees turning up met our target audience number. Everyone was happy, kids smiling as they played with the LED lanterns, program running smoothly. Hahas. *clap clap*

After my event ended, I was thinking of slacking my holidays away till one faithful day, Lynette called me and ask me if I want to help her with the filming for Destiny Impact's annual year end camp promotional video. Hmmm.. I agreed. Cause I was thinking.. Instead of slacking my holidays away, prolly I can do something to aid in the establishment of His Kingdom.

Also, I wanted to experience of filming. Wonder if I've ever shared with you, I've always wanted to be an actress (if there's a chance to). The joy of acting is that you get to attempt to be all sorts of character. From doctors, to lawyers, to murderer, CID, getting married, etc. Don't you think it's super cool?!

However this time, filming was kinda tough for me. Especially the part about getting into the character. My character's characteristics:

-Soft Spoken
-Shy
-Low Self-Esteem
-In love with Nic

My real characteristics:

-LOUD Spoken
-NOT at all shy
-SUPER HIGH Self-Esteem
-NOT at all in love with any guy (especially after the “到此为止” thingy..)

I seriously think it's a huge challenge for me cause the character I'm trying to get into is the total opposite of me. But~ If I'm gonna act as who I really am, then that's not called acting anymore.. Whatever it is, as long as it pleases God, I don't mind trying any character.

What I'm most looking forward to is actually the last few episodes. I won't mind crying scenes as long as the filming crew don't mind wasting memory space. Haha. Kidding luh. I'm sure natural feeling would come cause of the plot/script.

Honestly, I'm looking forward to the debut of the first episode. This is because Lynette keep telling me, "I seriously think you and nic very sweet leh" lol. I'm looking forward to see how sweet is her sweet lo. But to be really exact, I'm more looking forward to his reaction to the 2nd episode when it's played in Sunday service.

By the way, filming have been put on pause button recently. I heard that it's because the leaders have some "issue" with the script or something.. But whatever the reason is, I hope that filming resumes ASAP cause I don't wanna loose the feel of the character. And I'm really anticipating to how the script would move on to..

Talking about filming also reminds me about that scene that nic confessed to me. Haha!! It was really.. Hilarious/Ridiculous cause we spent the entire Sunday afternoon/evening filming that ONE scene. Haha. The main reason behind this long filming process is definitely partially because of me, the NG queen. Haha.

Spent such a long time before we could even hold hands normally. I guess it's really cause it's been a long while since the last time I held hands with the opposite gender bah (other than during prayer time).. In fact the last time I've ever been so close with a guy was prolly 2 years back when I hugged JX from the back (That was because we were playing truth or dare) bahz..

Haha. Heart pumping moments. I can never forget the shock-happy-embarrassed expression on JX face and how his face just literally turn red. Haha.

Memories, they're just meant to torture one for life.

Apart from filming, I worked with Lynette again. Some admin staff for events. It was just a 3 days thing. We were working for the same boss whom we worked for back in march. Fortunately, the experience this time round was much better than those in march. I guess it's because I'm more used to the way boss does things bahz..

What I'm more unhappy about is that boss keeps asking me to help her move this, move that (this & that refers to tables, chairs, cables, mineral water, etc.) while all Lynette does is just to guard the registration table. Haha!! I'm not really unhappy luh.. Just kidding de luh. Lynette did do her job too uh :)

Anyway there were 2 events running concurrently, one on level 4, the other on level 5. Lynette and I were situated on level 5 for day 1. Lynette remained there for the remaining 2 days while I'm situated at level 4 on day 2 and back to level 5 on day 3. Day 3 was the most exhausting day cause we ran out of mineral water.

The mineral water delivery was suppose to arrive at 10am but it wasn't there even pass noon. And boss got me to go to 7-11 to get 3 cartons of mineral water. Yea. She was nice enough to send 2 more guys along with me. We got the cheapest mineral water which is like.. $2.15 per bottle!!! It's like some daylight robbery. Each carton consist of 24 bottles, 600ml each. In short, each carton weights about 14.4kg. *faint*

Boss only sent 2 guys to help me. Which mean each person one carton, including me!!!! Can you imagine, I carried a 14.4kg carton from CineLeisure 7-11, all the way to Scape level 5. Thank God for lift luh!!!! Can't imagine if I have to take the stairs up. Anyway, I guess I was too concentrated into getting the carton of mineral water to its "Final Destination" that I used too much strength on my hands/arms and they were aching like nobody's business. I guess I've forgotten about my old injury bahz.. It seems to be like coming back again :/

In any case, it's over!!!! Spent the remaining of my holidays watching dramas :D Gotta go to bed now!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope I wake up in time for DI later =D

安静的呐喊
♥5:36 AM

Wednesday, September 05, 2012

Wrote this song sometime ago while I was mugging like some mad woman.. Wrote verse 1 while I was on some bus ride home.. The rest was completed while waiting for SadaGreen to appear at bugis square.

Didn't deliberately sat down and said "I'm gonna write a song now" or whatsoever. Was just thinking about some stuff, wanted to jot it down somewhere and somehow it became like that. Hurhurhur. Amazing yeah? Lol.

If you've caught the meaning of this song, yeah~ Thanks for taking time to read and understand it. Haha. I guess this is the first song that's written unintentionally.

Actually to me, songwriting is just to kill time and it's something I enjoy. Hmmm.. To really be precise, I write when there's certain emotion/things that I really can't help but to say it out.

I guess everybody's way of expressing themselves are different and for me, I choose to write them out. Honestly I don't bother if these songs are going to appear in the market or whatever, they're just simply for leisure purpose.

Of course, you can still give comments to whether you like them or not but yea. I'm not writing any songs to sell or forcing them into the market :]

Whether you like them or not, it's your choice. My blog is just plainly a place where I share my life. Hope y'all enjoy (Y)

安静的呐喊
♥5:10 AM

Monday, August 27, 2012
你有见过比我更白目的人吗?考试前的晚上,不睡觉,不读书;反而在画画,在创作。真是个疯子。

不过也还好。本来就不打算拿到好成绩。哈哈‼希望可以及格咯~新歌也写好了。为「特别的你」写的。期待。



安静的呐喊
♥12:02 PM

Thursday, August 23, 2012
最近的确有些不开心。某晚,我开始问自己:"你快乐吗"。后来才发现不开心的自己。

我无法在人群中表现出不快乐的那一面。微笑的面具会自动挂上。那不是我能控制的。但每当我离开了人群,我发现我还是原来的我,那个寂寞孤独的我。




「愛」的中间是个「心」。当「心」必须分成两个宇宙,那「愛」该从何说起??




没有权利爱
没有权利恨
没有权利开心
没有权利伤心
没有权利微笑
没有权利生气
唯有的权利就是「没有权利」

这两幅画是今天画的。画第一幅画的时候,心里就有许多的疑问在盘旋。想问的是,当一对情侣分手时,真的是因为发现不适合了吗?但为什么有些情侣可以交往超过十年,然后突然说分就分啊?等了十年才发现彼此不适合,这不是太瞎了吗?!

我想或许不是因为不适合,只是彼此一直活在自己捏造出来,对方的「你的世界」。不是突然发现不适合,只是突然发现自己一直生活在一个不存在的「你的世界」。

我喜欢青峰在林俊杰《不存在的情人》里写的这段词:

“没人理解的武装
没人怀疑的坚强

不想面对我的痴狂
不想证实我的荒唐
假装没受过伤
所有痛一个人承担

不愿意自己揭穿
这是我对自己的惩罚
不存在的情人
就不会离开我身旁”

人往往最不想面对的是自己。不想面对自己的懦弱、自己的荒唐、自己的痴狂、自己的真心。因为我们都知道自己最丑陋的一面,但却找不到承认的勇气。

而第二幅画是在描述某种无奈的感觉。我不喜欢别人问我“为什么心情不好?”或之类的问题。我想每个人多多少少都有心情不好的时候吧。难道我没有拥有「心情不好的时候」的权利吗?

我是人。我也有不像微笑的时候、也有闹情绪的时候、有发脾气的时候、有伤心难过,不像讲话的时候。这不都是正常人都该有的情绪吗?有谁能控制说“我今天不要不开心”啊?但是如果你是因为关心我而问我“为什么心情不好?”,那我会很乐意地与你分享当下的心情。但说真的,有时候不是每一个情绪都有理由的。所以,请不要阻止我拥有任何情绪/感情的权利好吗?

这几天,不由自主地封闭自己。我发现大部分的时间我找不到微笑的理由。于是我抽出了一些时间,到外面走走,散散步、散散心。拍了这张照片,用了最简单的两句话,细腻地描述那晚的心情..




走在被雨淋湿的人行道上,
无尽头地寻找下一个微笑的理由。

安静的呐喊
♥4:28 AM

当我们一起走过 Cover
Tuesday, August 14, 2012


我们都曾有过 风雨过后的沉重
形同陌路的口 但心却还流通
当我们一起走过 这些伤痛的时候
包着碎裂的心 继续下一个梦

有多少苦痛 有你和我一起度过
一起承受
有多少快乐 有你和我一起享受
一起感动

《当我们一起走过》
Cover, specially dedicated to Lynette :] Hmm.. If I've not mentioned earlier, this is your early birthday present for this year. Hahaha!!! <3

安静的呐喊
♥10:06 PM

【那些年,我們一起追的女孩】電影主題曲《那些年》官方正式MV
Sunday, August 12, 2012

看这部电影,会想起那年的我们。那年的“老公”与“老婆”的故事。
听着这首歌,会莫名其妙地流泪。好想告诉你,告诉你我没忘记。

每当想起你,我都会不由自主地想起那天在公车占的回忆。
这回忆的画面只属于你和我。 你呢?当你想起我,你会想到什么?
Will you even think of me in the first place?

爱的承诺不能随意轻易说出口。一旦无法履行,它将会是个更大的伤害。

安静的呐喊
♥8:38 PM

Thursday, August 02, 2012
《分裂的对话》


Verse 1:
彼此赤裸面对面 双目交叉
目睹我身上的疤 你尴尬吗
见证我泪珠滑落 心内疚吗
面对被你折磨的我如何闪躲


Verse 2:
那天的恨是否还存在
折腾我后的你疲累吗
拥抱那颗疲惫的躯壳
流出的泪该怎么掩饰


Pre-Chorus 1:
没有谁没爱过
没有谁没伤过
没有谁没恨过
没有谁没痛过


Chorus:
最后那一吻温柔却尖锐
割破那颗铁打的心
拒绝你瞳孔闪烁的同情
摈废镜子里的我们

曾经以为你我是异体
各自活在自己的宇宙
如今发现我们的合体
你的伤造就如今的我


Verse 2:
那天的恨是否还存在
折腾我后的你疲累吗
拥抱那颗疲惫的躯壳
流出的泪该怎么掩饰


Pre-Chorus 2:
为了你的空虚而孤单
为了你的孤单而寂寞
为了你的寂寞而难过
为了你的难过而崩裂


Chorus:
最后那一吻温柔却尖锐
割破那颗铁打的心
拒绝你瞳孔闪烁的同情
摈废镜子里的我们

曾经以为你我是异体
各自活在自己的宇宙
如今发现我们的合体
你的伤造就如今的我


End:
最终才明白
口中的你是我
分裂的情绪
一个人的对话


Finally done with this set of lyrics. If you understand what I'm trying to communicate, I hope it impacts your life. Actually it all explains with the ending. Basically this song is somewhat of a "Split Personality" song where I am singing to myself.. Kinda thing~ Haha.

I decided to write this kind of song when I was going through this dark period of my life. Not that I've literally physically tortured myself but during that period of time I felt as though I'm mentally torturing myself. In terms of my thoughts, emotions, etc.

Also I've recently heard about how people physically abuse themselves. Example.. Those who cut themselves with a pen-knife, self abuse/torture, and even those who just waste their lives away by drinking, clubbing, smoking, etc. If you're any of these people, please. I urge you to stop what you're doing. God created you for a purpose and that purpose is definitely not to waste your life away just like that.

Stop torturing yourself cause there's this part of you that's crying out for you to stop it. I've always believe that everyone has this Good and Bad side of them. You can say.. The angel and devil within a person.

Many times it's really up to you to who you want to be. The Angel side? Or the Devil Side? Even after being a Christian for so long, sometimes I could still sense this Devil part of me arising from deep within. It's really important to notice it in time and pray against it.

Anyway, If you get the message behind this set of lyrics, text me, FB chat me or you can leave a message in my Cbox :) Stop this self torturing thing. It hurts.

安静的呐喊
♥1:42 AM

Monday, July 30, 2012
935,说长不长,说短也没有很短;但听起来,它带着某种折疼人心的感觉。承受这935天里的所有复杂的心情、难挨的日子、度秒如年的时光;只为了更好的未来。935是我们的考验。

安静的呐喊
♥10:42 AM

Sunday, July 22, 2012
如果我的快乐是建立在你的痛苦上,我宁愿你槟废我拥有享受快乐的权利。

安静的呐喊
♥7:06 PM

Saturday, July 21, 2012
365天前的今天,我们只是普通朋友。那时的我正在为另一个他伤心难过,忽视了你对我的好。366天前的今天,你意外的告白害得我一时措手不及,不知该如何反应,心跳差点停止跳动。如果当时心跳真的停止怎么办?!改次不准再玩这套了!!吓死我了~

从366天前的今天到366天后的今天,我们之间发生了很多大大小小的争执。但它让我更确定你对我的好。

366天后的今天,我想说:即使我现在接受你的告白,我们还是得无奈等多944天咯~

安静的呐喊
♥12:27 AM

蘇打綠 sodagreen -【是我的海】MV 官方完整版
Wednesday, July 11, 2012


詞曲/吳青峰

這些日子以來 突然間變成一片空白
這段日子是否 沉睡中忽然哭醒過來
太多意外 沒想要勉強我感慨
太多困難 會讓人害怕看未來

你知道我不想離開
你知道我有多無奈
如果時間一直走得那麼快
我怎麼對你依賴

是我的海 陽光的下午慢慢感染
當海不藍 飛起的夢想都變塵埃

你知道我不想離開
你知道我有多無奈
如果時間一直走得那麼快
我怎麼對你依賴
淚流出來該怎麼辦

是我的海 寂靜的下午默默離開
海也不藍 轉過身不能再寵愛

我多想大聲喊
我多不想明白
我只想唱來一些溫暖
在我們心裡不會腐壞

安静的呐喊
♥2:26 AM



-She Listens


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-The Girl
*Name: Venus Lee Yan 李缘
*Date Of Birth: 20th Feb 1994
*Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=743058322
*E-mail: Venus_lee_yan@hotmail.com
*AKA: Retarded Over Turn Blonde Turtle

-Her Love
*Enjoying God's presence
*Reflecting
*Making song covers
*Making videos
*Looking at the moon
*Studying the meaning behind every song
*Singing
*listening to songs
*My friends
*Pursuing my dreams
*Writing phrases that speaks what I feel about certain matter
*Every talent I'm blessed with
*Listening to people
*Split personality
*Everything God has given me

-Her Detest
*Empty promises
*Lies
*Cowards

-Her Past
February 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 March 2010 May 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 September 2012 October 2012 November 2012 January 2013 April 2013



-Exits
*BVSS*
ChUnWeN
JaSoN
TaN hUi JuAn
XiAo HuI
Xi Yu

*DESTINY IMPACT*
DeStInY iMpAcT
GlAdYs
EuNiCe

*DLSS*
BuNcHaNa

*FAMILY*
DaDdY
SaMuEl LeE wEi KaNg

*STARS*
OfFiCiAl JJ LiN jUn JiE 林俊杰's BlOg
Jimmy Lin Chi Ying 林志颖
Show Luo 罗志祥

*SENIORS*
LiNg HuAn

*TEACHERS*
MiSs AnG


-The Talkings


-CREDITS

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