Have been very rude to mama these few days. Mama as in the real mama. Not ducky mama. But can't really blame me. If not because of the words she say and all her freaking reactions, I wouldn't have been so rude to her.

Just because I on the computer and charge my Ipod, she say she want to confiscate it! What shit la. Charge only what. Will die is it?! And she keep asking 'Ipod must use computer charge one meh?' And when I told her nicely 'yes.' She can actually ask me 'then how come I didn't see kor kor charging his Ipod?' What crap la.

Every time he comes back from army he'll on the computer. Whether he charge or not how she know? He can just leave his Ipod connecting to the computer and do what ever he want on the computer right? Angry man. She say until like as if I everyday charge like that. No point explaining things to her when all she believe is what her friends say.

Don't like her friends la. Every night 11pm already still can call her hp and can chat till as late as 1am! So does that mean I also can confiscate her hp?! And I don't know what her friends tell her that whatever they say she believe. What ever I say she'll ask this and that before she believe. Sometimes even after asking this and that she's still very suspicious la.

But I don't expect her to trust me cause I don't really trust her too. Don't ask me why. I just can't. And just now when I came home from school, I call her and REPORT to her that I'm home. So I ask her if I can use computer to do my homework. And I don't know what the h*** she was talking about until she can say she want confiscate my Ipod again!

What is this la. If you don't want me to have a Ipod, then why ever did you give it to me in the first place? And no matter what marks I get, she's never happy with it. Some times I really don't know what she want from me before she's happy. And on the phone, she keep nagging and nagging and NAGGING!

And she can ask me 'Then now what are you doing? so late already still got time to use computer ar?' Please! Can't you hear that I'm talking to you on the phone?! What can I do when I'm talking on the phone! And it was she who was taking up my precious time please. I need to rush cause I need to hand in the work by tomorrow and I have to reach school by 6pm for some choir thingy.

She say until like as if I'm talking to my friend and wasting my time... Angry eh. Every body's tolerance level has a limit. You know since young till now, this was the first time I'm being so rude to her. The first time in my life that I ever raise my voice at her. But I'm really angry. Every time she just say what she thinks and had never once consider if what she said was the truth or not.

Haiz... My blood is boiling. Honestly, I think her friends understands her more than I do. Every time she's angry, she will just go complain to her friends and telling them this and that. Really wonder how did I manage to tolerate her so much in the past few years. Haiz... Maybe I'm in the wrong but you can't possibly deny that mama is all correct...

By the way, I did do my work and I had already completed them before I started blogging k. Some times I wonder. Why can't my mama be like Denise's mama? why my mama can't be like Ducky's mama? Why can't she be more understanding, more patient and less suspicious? What can't she just like believe me just for once?

Is not like as if I've lied to her before... I really wonder. So many question marks and yet no answer.

All of a sudden, I feel so empty. Fell so tired. The shadow that has been following me for years. When can I ever get rid of it? So many troubles. Yet none is solved. Think the person I shall srrender my life to, would be you, my holy father lord.

The bible says that we should trust and obey god. We cannot use God's name in vain. Example: Oh My God! And things like that cause it's a sin. The bible also say, we should love one another, care for one another and protect one another just like how god love, care and protect us.

If you did notice, every time when we end a prayer, we end it by saying 'we pray to you in the name your your son, Jesus Christ, amen.' We have to pray to god in through Jesus cause God is holy, while we are sinners. God cannot come to Earth and save us cause there's a line between our holy father and us.

That's why god send Jesus, his only son, down to earth to save us by dying on the cross. Okay wait. that's out of point. That's why we must pray to god through Jesus. And when we say 'amen' it means something like 'yes god, we agree' or something like that. Haha. Think I've learnt quite a lot from church ar? Haha.

But that's what the bible says and what Gladys and Si Er told me. Haha. By the way, Si Er and his wife are both teachers too. Haha. =.= Think I've said that before right? Haha. Okay! I got to go now. Hope I can share more about god with everyone more often next time. Haha. BYE!!!

Wait! Before I forget. Miss Ang is the one of the five teacher who are awarded the Most Caring Teacher Award. Does this mean she's no longer Evil??? Haha. Hope so. BYE!!!