All of a sudden, I feel so empty. My mind is totally blank. I'm just simply clueless about what's going around me. All that I know is that we're going to be separated in another... about one month time.

Good things always comes to an end very quickly while the bad will just stay... Forever. And I don't know why I suddenly miss Miss Goh so much. All of a sudden, I miss those days where Jia Min and I spent our time with Miss Goh. How I wish the time could be reversed.

I was lying down in my bed just now, day dreaming, recalling of the happy moments that I've in my 14 years of life. Reflecting on how many foolish things I've done. How many meaningful things I've done. And how many countless times I've got myself into trouble.

Every time I look at Miss Ang, she somehow reminds me of Miss Goh. I don't know why. Question marks.

Hiaz... Wonder when will be the next time I'm gonna meet Kong. Sometimes I really wish that the December Holiday would come ASAP, especially when I see Freak Lee's face. But upon thinking that when the holidays come means we will be separated, I hope that time would just freeze at this very moment. Everything will just stop and never start moving again.

I remember 2 weeks ago, Si Er came and talk to me. And he told me, I'll be a very special person. One who will shine either in class, school or even in work. He said God created me to shine in wherever I am. To bring more people to know Him.

Honestly when I heard that, I was like 'No jokes please' and he was like... 'I'm serious. God just told it to me.' And I was like... erm... shocked. Me? Shine in wherever I am? So is that why I have a special name: Venus? With a special nickname called Turtle? I mean Retarded Over Turn Turtle? I don't deny the fact that I still don't really believe in what Si Er told me. But... never mind. Time will reveal the answer.

Maybe I'm really that special that I can bring many more people to know God? Who knows. Cause my close friends are like all not possible... Chicken she's already a Christian. Rabbit and Xiao Hui can forget it. They're Buddhist and their mama won't even allow them to go to church. Doggy papa... She's not even willing to leave the house on Saturdays and Sundays. She rather spend her time sleeping (I think).

Cow... I'm not very close to her. Although we're all in the retarded family but I seldom talk to her. Maybe in Sec 3 or 4 or maybe like what Si Er said... When I start working. Hahas. As I said. No one knows the answer so we shall let God decide to when he wishes to reveal the answer to us.

Time to go to bed... Nite nite and sweet dreams. :D