Hey! I've got something to share!! I know boss did ask me to stop print screening but I really want to share this with you people =]
I don't know how will you feel after reading our conversation but honestly.. I was shocked by her response. Personally when someone tell me that he/she will choose to believe whatever I say, I'll be very shock and shock to the extend where I'll lose the courage to not tell the truth to that person.
Most importantly is cause I treasure that trust and I'm not at all willing to betray that trust. As I've said before: "You can choose not to believe what I say, but never should you doubt me."
Hence I'll choose to be honest with anyone who is willing to trust/believe in whatever I say. Cause I really treasure it loads.
If you can recall, I posted this on Facebook on Thursday: "You don't have to give a long speech to convince a person. All it takes is just that key word." and that key word that caused me to choose to be honest is "Authenticity".
Nevertheless, though I choose to be honest with boss, I like the last sentence: "好想翻墙，然后突然消失" Taaahaaha!! Honestly I think xuan is very unpredictable. She can talk to you about a topic and suddenly hit you with a bomb. And it's really a bomb that will cause you to lose the ability to escape.
But I really like that shock feeling. It really cause me to think deep and face the truth that I've tried to escape for years. Haish.. But smiles :]
安静的呐喊
♥1:10 AM
It's been ages since the last time I posted something in Chinese. As in.. The past few blog posts are majority in English and I'm so not used to that.. Haish.. Actually I also don't know what post.
It's just the weird and awkward feeling that caused me to be so speechless at times..
安静的呐喊
♥12:14 AM
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Wooosh! This is my first ever design. Can't believe it. I never knew that I would actually even think of designing. You know what.. When Eunice first announced that there's this DI badge designing competition thingy, I was so not interested in it. Never have I thought of designing a badge. At the back of my mind I was thinking: Haiya.. Let those who can really design do the job.
And.. What am I doing now sia!!! PS: this post is suppose to be so Singlish. Taaaahha.
Anyway.. What I really want to say is that.. Many times we might really think that things are beyond our ability. But when the inspiration strikes, trust me.. Things will turn around and make a 180 degree change! Awesome. But right.. Now there's another problem.. For this badge designing competition thingy right.. I've to submit it in Photoshop format!!! Sianz sia!! Haiz.. Think I shall try it out on Photoshop some other day bah.. Let me get through my POM and Law test first >_<
Anyway.. The inspiration of this design all started out with my reflection journal for last Saturday's DI sermon (It's up on DI blog already! http://di-perspectives.blogspot.com). Initially while I was writing it, I was also thinking.. Huh? Reflection ar.. Sianz.. Don't know what to write..
But as I was thinking of what to write, I asked for our Father to speak to me and just simply use me. Then I started writing about our first love with Him, rededicating out lives to Him once more and stuff like that.. Then suddenly something just brought me the thought of designing the DI badge. Is just like a call, calling me to do the impossible!
So I possibly did the impossible, which is to complete the reflection journal. Then after that I went on to search for inspiration to design this DI badge. And it started off with "First Love". So I knew I'll design something with a heart. But just a heart itself is kind of plain and meaningless.
Then I went on searching for more inspiration by listening to songs and stuff. And it just suddenly struck me to listen to DI originated songs. And funny thing is other than the song "Our God is Love" that is written by Eugene, all the other DI originated songs are by Andy. Taaahaha. Oh! Why DI originated songs? Cause it's a DI Originated badge. Haha.
Anyway.. So I went to listen to those songs. When I was listening to Author of Life, there's this sentence, "Writing His story in mine" caught hold of my attention. So I decided to design something like a book kinda thing.. Guess what's the next question..
How do I combine a book together with a heart?! Taaahaha!! So initially I wanted to draw a book and a heart on the left page of the book and kinda stuff.. If you get what I was talking about..
However as I was drawing the book.. I think is partially cause of my lousy drawing, it actually turned out to be like a heart!! Taaahahaha!!! Then the sudden 'TING!' rang in my head and I was like... RIGHT!!! AWESOME. Haha.
Next! Since it's "Writing" so there should be a pen/pencil. I choose pencil cause it feels more... Hmm.. Easy to draw is one thing.. Taaaahaha!! But pencil is like.. It feels more personal. Pen will feel more mature kind of thingy and it makes me feel very distant. So yepz! I choose pencil.
Lastly.. I was thinking.. If a DI badge is without the word DI or Destiny Impact,it wouldn't be a DI badge anymore. Then here comes the last question.. Where should I place the word Destiny Impact & how am I gonna do that? So I decided to write it as the border. but if it's just Destiny.Impact, it will be very weird. And that's where God Chaser, Heart Joiner & Light Giver comes in!
Then.. Taaaada!! This is my DI badge design. Honestly, it sounded as if I took the whole day designing it. but the fact is.. I took less than an hour. What I really want to say is that.. Not to boast about my designing ability but to tell everyone out there who are reading this post.. Don't give up before trying. Ask for inspiration. And if He really have a desire for you to do something, He'll give you the inspiration you need.
Honestly to me, it doesn't matter if my design is chosen to be the official DI badge design or not. What matters the most to me is that our Father have proven to me that what I used to think that was the impossible was made possible cause I trusted in Him.
I want you to believe: If you're willing to place your trust in Him, time will reveal that He is a living God and He'll use you, in His very own special & unique ways =]
安静的呐喊
♥4:05 AM
你要的不是我 Cover
I really like this cover. My singing may not be that fantastic but I really like the emotion of this song. It's definitely different for JJ's version, of course his is nicer cause he's the original singer, but I did this song cover when I was having quite a bad flu plus block nose.
But I think it's really cool how I manage to focus on the emotional part than my current situation back then. Hmm.. You need not agree with me but I think this is one of the best cover I've done so far. Still trying to do more impact-ful and meaningful covers.
Maybe for the time being I'll not do covers.. Wanna concentrate on my studies first. Will be doing my covers soon! Maybe during the September semester break?? A good time for me to chill out ^_^ AND MY KTV (KBOX)!!! Oh man.. I've been craving for Kbox for a super long time!! It's definitely my motivation to faster study and get through this exam period and the Singing World is ready to welcome me in!!! MUUUHAHAAHHAHAHA!!!!
Hope ya enjoy my cover =]
安静的呐喊
♥12:16 AM
Friday, August 19, 2011
Found something cool on Facebook!!
Why a man needs a wife ?
Because :
W --- Washing
I --- Ironing
F --- Food
E --- Entertainment
Why a woman needs a husband ?
Because :
H --- Housing
U --- Understanding
S --- Sharing
B --- Buying
A --- and
N --- Never
D --- Demanding
安静的呐喊
♥2:57 PM
没有期待，就没有失望。
没有爱，就不会受伤。
没有心，就不会痛 =]
安静的呐喊
♥6:04 AM
Thursday, August 18, 2011
I question: Why should I love?
The answer was: Cause God loved me 1st so that I can love others.
I ask: Why am I loved?
The answer was: Cause I'm made to be loved by God.
I doubt: Am I really worth to be loved?
The answer was: Yes.
Don't keep thinking that you're in the worst situation. There are many more people who are in worse situation as compared to you, it's just that you've yet to hear about their stories.
So if you're feeling down, lost or despair, Stand up! Look up! and SMILE!! Tomorrow will always be a better day :]
This is the video I've always wanted to share. Yep. It's up on Facebook as well as Youtube. And it's specially for Boss, obvious right? Haha.
Hmm.. This video is to simply encourage her la.. Cause initially when boss told me on.. tues (26 July) that she's not able to meet me cause her grandpa passed away, I was like.. orh. And didn't really take the matter to heart.
But on Saturday, when I met Jeraldine and the other DI people at clementi, I heard from them that boss didn't go for DI. Err.. I wasn't there too cause of some school activities. Anyway! When I heard about it I was like.. "okay~ That's so Xuan's Style" and as I was on the train, travelling home, God just set a question in my heart: Do you have compassion for the lost? But then again, I thought about it for a while and that's it.
Then comes Sunday. During Sunday service, they were talking about lost souls, the souls that were gonna perish to hell. As I was listening to the message, it really spoke a lot to me. During ministry time, as we were singing "We will run to the altar, and catch the fire, to stand in the gap between the living and the dead" and suddenly, I opened my eyes and my eyes were set on boss. I don't know why but it was a total sudden.
Seconds later, I watch her walk out of the auditorium. That very moment, I heard a voice telling me, "Encourage". I asked why? There's so many people in the auditorium, but why me? And flashbacks came, bringing me back to those days when I felt lost, didn't know what to do, needed someone to talk to, someone texted me this: No judgement, just a pair of listening ears.
Hey. The fact that someone is willing to listening to you without any judgement.. That's totally awesome kae. So I was thinking.. Xuan was there when we needed encouragement so this time round, let's change roles!
When I got home, I thought about what can we do.. And the thought of making a video came. I struggled cause making a video can be annoying and difficult especially when you don't have the inspiration to. Which I really don't have at that point of time. But my following action was kind of suicidal as I texted every DI impactors to send me their word of encouragement.
Reason being why it was suicidal, cause I told them I'll be making a video which will be played on that coming Saturday and that gave me no excuse to retreat. And before I knew it, I've got a huge work pile on hand. IT project, law tutorial, EMC trail presentation, Gen Ed Presentation, POM tutorial and EMD Presentation!!! And I was like.. OH MAN!!!!!
Worst part of all, though I start preparing the video since Monday, by gathering pictures & video from Facebook, I did not have a song in mind!!! Was thinking of "You raise me up" but we used that for her Birthday and I was like... Grrr.. Cause I don't listen to english songs and playing a chinese song in DI is... WEIRD!
I searched for songs.. Listened to countless of them but none of them gave me the "right feeling". UNTIL!! On Tuesday.. Midnight.. Or rather early Wednesday morning, as I was chatting with Celine on Facebook, she suggested Hero. I went to yotube, searched for the song. When the intro came in.. even before Mariah Carey started singing, I was like.. THIS IS IT!
And taaaada!! The video is out. Oh! I missed out something funny.. I was texting Rachel, telling her that I'll be doing a video for Xuan and I asked her, "You want it to be a happy one, encouraging one or Emo one?? Haha. I think it will be very bad if we do an Emo one. Haha" and guess what Rachel reply.. She said, "Of course encouraging!!" Yes! She exclamation mark me!!! Haha. But I had a good laugh when I received her reply. It was so funny. Haha. Well.. at least to me, it is funny..
Anyway.. Nothing much to talk about the process of the making of the video. Just like all other video, you'll just have to keep playing and pausing and playing the same part over and over again. And after the video was done, I told myself I'm not gonna listen to Hero for at least the next 2 weeks.. Haha. It's so annoying.. But not as bad as You Raise Me Up.. That song repeated the chorus x number of times sia!!
So right.. What I want to say is.. Video making isn't that easy so next time you watch a video, feel it with your heart. And if ever given a choice, try.. As far as possible to keep away from Video Editing. Especially when you've lack of the inspiration to make one. Haha!!
That's all for today and I've got to get moving with my EMC slides! My actual presentation is tomorrow.. Or rather later.. See ya!!
安静的呐喊
♥2:37 AM
Hiie.. I'm back again. hmm.. not ready to talk about the video yet but i've got something to share with those who wants to loose weight. Here it is:
早餐吃得好；
午餐吃得饱；
晚餐吃得少
不要挨饿。因为人，都要吃饭! :]
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安静的呐喊
♥12:40 AM
Monday, August 08, 2011
Woah! It's been.. 1 week plus since the last time I posted. Haha. Actually.. I don't know what to say. I was about to sleep when I suddenly decided to make a visit here and I thought I should just update it to inform you.. MY BLOG ISN'T DEAD!! Haha. Have yet to find any inspiration to write something touchy or inspiriting.. Or rather.. I don't really have the time now cause I've got to go to bed soon. "Soon and very soon, my King is coming.."
Okay. Sorry. That was totally random. Haha. I'll share with you my experience on making a video for someone special whom I was commanded by Him to encourage. But NOT NOW!! Maybe later in the day when I'm having my lunch break or something.. Now it's time to go to bed. I'm starting to get excited to share about the video how impossibly it was to complete it on time but yet it was made possible and also the inspiration I got to make it!
Anyway.. It's really time to go to bed. So... Gotta GO!!! See ya!! ^_^ nite nite people =]
*Name: Venus Lee Yan 李缘
*Date Of Birth: 20th Feb 1994
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*AKA: Retarded Over Turn Blonde Turtle
-Her Love
*Enjoying God's presence
*Reflecting
*Making song covers
*Making videos
*Looking at the moon
*Studying the meaning behind every song
*Singing
*listening to songs
*My friends
*Pursuing my dreams
*Writing phrases that speaks what I feel about certain matter
*Every talent I'm blessed with
*Listening to people
*Split personality
*Everything God has given me
