-Her Story
Friday, January 13, 2012
Hello peeps!! I'm like.. Still awake at this hour. It's 3:35AM!! Can't get to sleep now cause I KO-ed on my bed the moment I got home. So I "nap" for like.. an hour.. and it kept me awake till now.. ROARrrr!!
Anyway, how was your day? Mine was like.. Hmm.. Like that lo. School, lectures, studies, bored. Had mentoring session with Xuan after school though. I guess that was the only thing that kept me alive for today.
One thing I've been reflecting about is.. What God has been speaking to me throughout 2011. From 1st Jan 2011 till 31st Dec 2011, I've always thought God was telling/teaching to place my "Trust" & "Faith" in Him. But as I think back now, I think on top of placing my Trust & Faith in Him, I need to learn how to let go of things that wouldn't matter for eternity, things that does not belong to me, things that I've yet to surrender to God.
Things that do not matter for eternity would be things like.. Money, Facebook, Twitter, Youtube, etc. Shall not mention Blogger since I'm on it now. Lol.
Things that does not belong to me would be like.. Certain relationships? Yea. It cost something when we choose to serve Him.
Things that I've yet to surrender to God.. Probably Bao Bei. Some bits and pieces of my life. Times where I choose to be rebellious and make decisions without seeking Him, hoping at the end of the day that nothing will go wrong.
Letting go every small part of my earthly self costs something out of me. And sometimes, I choose to be stubborn and cling on to these things. Father, guide me as I seek you.
I'm not sure if I'm overly sensitive or what, but there are really times where I felt as though I'm falling back to the days where "God, you're only allowed to invade my Saturdays. The rest of the days are mine". But thank God, I'm sensitive when such things are approaching and I have to constantly remind myself to surrender my all to Him.
Here and there, there are really many incidents where I was on the verge of giving up. Honestly, I don't know what was the power that kept me running. But above all, I know God was with me through it all.
It's so miraculous how I came to know God. How He guided me out of darkness, catching me when I'm falling, chasing me when I'm running away, Loving me when I hated Him. The love of the Father can never be comprehended by just a blogpost or a speech. You've got to experience it yourself. Don't ask how would you know if it's the love of God. Cause when you experience it, you'll know "That's the love of my God".
I remember when I first hear the song "Who Am I", He moved. That's when I realise: My God is a living God who move not only on Saturday Encounters but He move every single moment. Even during my personal time. When I'm just looking for a new song to listen to and stuff. And He moved when I first heard the song "Who Am I"
Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.
Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.
Not because of who I am.
But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
For those who have yet to have that Godly encounter, I'll pray for you. I'll pray that you'll really have that desire to want to have that same Godly Encounter I had. Cause He said in His word that He will show up to those who really desires Him.
It was never once because of us. It was because of Him. That cross. Those hands, those feet. That Guy, who choose to hang himself up that tree. Jesus, it was all because of You. Thank you Father.
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*Name: Venus Lee Yan 李缘
*Date Of Birth: 20th Feb 1994
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-Her Love
*Enjoying God's presence
*Reflecting
*Making song covers
*Making videos
*Looking at the moon
*Studying the meaning behind every song
*Singing
*listening to songs
*My friends
*Pursuing my dreams
*Writing phrases that speaks what I feel about certain matter
*Every talent I'm blessed with
*Listening to people
*Split personality
*Everything God has given me
-Her Detest
*Empty promises
*Lies
*Cowards
