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《分裂的对话》

彼此赤裸面对面 双目交叉
目睹我身上的疤 你尴尬吗
见证我泪珠滑落 心内疚吗
面对被你折磨的我如何闪躲

那天的恨是否还存在
折腾我后的你疲累吗
拥抱那颗疲惫的躯壳
流出的泪该怎么掩饰

没有谁没爱过
没有谁没伤过
没有谁没恨过
没有谁没痛过

最后那一吻温柔却尖锐
割破那颗铁打的心
拒绝你瞳孔闪烁的同情
摈废镜子里的我们

曾经以为你我是异体
各自活在自己的宇宙
如今发现我们的合体
你的伤造就如今的我

那天的恨是否还存在
折腾我后的你疲累吗
拥抱那颗疲惫的躯壳
流出的泪该怎么掩饰

为了你的空虚而孤单
为了你的孤单而寂寞
为了你的寂寞而难过
为了你的难过而崩裂

最后那一吻温柔却尖锐
割破那颗铁打的心
拒绝你瞳孔闪烁的同情
摈废镜子里的我们

曾经以为你我是异体
各自活在自己的宇宙
如今发现我们的合体
你的伤造就如今的我

最终才明白
口中的你是我
分裂的情绪
一个人的对话


《19天的折磨》

没想过我会有泪水
储蓄已久的回忆
在一瞬间被你捏碎

逃避也是一种勇气
没有人规定面对才是坚强
懦弱不是我的专长
泪水却是我唯一的筹码

痴狂的等待
疯狂的欲望
爆狂的恋爱

剥开所有伤口
撕烂一切回忆
嘲笑我眼角的变化
着疤痕是你的杰作

环绕在崩溃的边缘
我安静的呐喊
内心的无奈

-Her Story
林俊傑-學不會[JJ - Never Learn] - 華納official 官方完整HD高畫質版MV
Sunday, March 11, 2012
不停的警告自己,绝对不要再从同样的地方跌倒了。但我好像又失败了。我终于明白「学不会」有多无奈。「不能拥有」的心情,你能了解吗??

面对「爱情」,我们永远都是新手。永远,学不会。

安静的呐喊
♥1:50 AM

Friday, March 02, 2012
Still on my path of recovery. Have been a good girl, taking my medicine on time and regularly. Heeehe. Hope that I'll be fully recovered by this Saturday ^_^

Busy weekend ahead!! Gonna sleep soon. Have to bring Bao Bei down for grooming later. Heeah :D

安静的呐喊
♥12:51 AM

Thursday, March 01, 2012
Oooooh wow. It's been ages since I've last blogged. Have been super busy with my exams, falling sick and stuff.. yiiiiew >_< Hate being sick. Tell you more about it later.

Anyway.. I guess i've totally screwed up my ECMR paper. Was like trying to memorise stuff but nothing went in. Went in to the exam hall feeling super blanked out. All thanks to that annoying fever, flu and headache. Haiz.. I just hope that I won't have to repeat this semester again :(

Back to my illness. Was having flu since the day before my birthday.. But initially I thought... Aiya.. flu nia.. no big deal. I mean.. Not like as if you've never kenna flu before right?? So... yea.

Kept sneezing all the way till don't know when.. Headache started. By then I guess it was 22nd or 23rd le bah.. And guess what's the fun part?? I'm on GB worship on 25th!! Sore throat started to join in the fun on Thursday night and by then, I knew something was wrong and I suspected it to be throat infection.

Tried to get Andy to take over me for GB on that Saturday but he had other commitments so.. yea. And my very wonderful accountability partner couldn't make it cause she had some family stuff on. Thank God for Si Rui. She helped me in the guitar and stuff. Really appreciate her. Oh!! Not forgetting Sheena!! I thought of her on the Friday afternoon and asked her if she was able to back me up in vocals and he agreed.Oh.. Seriously thank God. She's like an angel sent down from heaven to rescue me. Haha. But I'm serious kae.

Wanted to see a doctor on Friday night after coming back from my Marketing paper. So I called up the clinic to check what time will they be closing and the nurse said "oh. We're closing now already" and I was like.. Thanks~ Called another clinic and they said "If you want to come down, you have to be here by 9:30" by then the time was already 9pm and mum wasn't back home yet.

So I was like... Forget it. Oh yea. By the way.. My sore throat was still there on Friday. I was like literally drowning myself in Honey Water and Panadol Extra. I can't take the normal Panadol already. It has lost all its effects on me :(

Of course on top of all the self medication, spiritual medication works the best. Kept praying and praying till somehow.. I fell asleep. Woke up the next morning.. Still felt the sore throat still there so I drank a cup of Honey Water before leaving house. Not forgetting my Panadol Extra. Hahas.

By the time I reached SVPS, I was like.. Praise God. I found my voice. Lead through worship and stuff and you know what.. It takes only that little bit for faith and God does miracles through you IF only you would allow Him to.

Managed to pull through DI, till Sunday when I've really lost my voice. I'm talking as though I'm whispering and I was like.. NO~~~ Didn't intend to see the doctor. Just slept through the day. On Monday I tried to chiong my ECMR and nothing went in. Stayed up through the night but yea.. Forget it..

Halfway through the paper I visited the toilet cause my nose was like running out of control. Haha. "Stole" some tissue paper from the toilet and went back into the exam hall. Sat there for anther good half an hour starring into blank space until I really decide to give up and left the exam hall.

Went home, feeling super drenched out. Felt as though I'm an empty corpse drifting home. Haha. Crashed into bed immediately. My Ah Jie wanted to bring me to visit the clinic that afternoon but no energy could drive me out of bed.

After sleeping through the afternoon, I woke up with a high fever at 7 plus pm. I thought sleep was suppose to heal me?? Haha. Anyway, that's a stupid idea. Measured my temperature.. It was like.. 37.something?? went back to sleep and woke up at 9pm with an even higher fever! Measured by temperature again and it was like 38.4!! By then I was like telling myself that I'll visit the doctor when the sun rises again the next day.

Oh!! And dad came back from Cambodia that night too!! At around 9 plus.. I took my temperature again at 9:30pm and it was rising.. It was like 38.6 And I was like.. uh oh.. Something isn't right. But.. you know.. Venus likes to act like some SuperTurtle.. So I crawled out of bed and went to have my dinner, hoping that I'll feel better after dinner. Didn't tell anyone that I was having fever although It's obvious that I'm half dead. Haha. Took my temperature again at 10pm and I was shocked to the max!! It was like 38.9!!!

I told myself I shall stop acting like a SuperTurtle and really be a good girl and go see the doctor immediately. I was afraid that If I go back to sleep, my fever might just overshot the thermometer and I might just suffer from some brain damage. So immediately, I told dad that I'm having a super high fever and asked Him to bring me to a 24hr clinic.

One thing I didn't like about 24hr clinic is that.. I used to think that those doctors are all the lousy doctors who can't handle the patients in the day. So the were put on night shift so that lesser patients would have to "suffer" hahah!!

Dad drove me to the 24hr clinic at Bukit Batok. The one somewhere near the bus interchange. I went in, told the doctor all the "sufferings" and he did a few checks on me and he said "nothing much. it's just throat infection that started off from flu" and I was like.. WOW!! He's amazing. Haha. And that changed my view about 24hr clinics. Haha.

He gave me some medicine and stuff.. And I took them the moment I reached home and crashed into bed AGAIN!! This time, without showering. Yea. Smelly I know. But can you have some compassionate for someone who is so sick and half dead?? Haha.

Oh before I went to bed, I messaged Xuan to tell her that I couldn't meet her the following day cause I'm having high fever and stuff.. Messaged Andy & HuiLing that I'm not able to serve GB on 3rd March too cause of my serious throat infection. Thank God for all these understanding leaders. I know many of them have been praying for me to be heal and etc. Really appreciate those prayers.

Here's the main point. After crashing into bed after taking my medicine, I woke up the next morning feeling weird. Feeling weird positively. Not negatively. Immediately I touched my forehead and it felt as though my fever was gone. So i took out my very special thermometer and measured my temperature and it was like.. 36.4!! Even lower than my usual temperature!! And I was like.. WOOOHOO!!

The next thing I did, I went... "Ahhhhhhh.." and Praise God!! My voice is back!! The night before I was like dragging myself everywhere I go. And when I got out of bed, I was like jumping all around. No more headache, no more mussel cramp or aching anywhere.. All that was left was the phlegm and a little cough. I felt as though I'm fully recovered!!

God really did miracles though my body that night. Oh. Guess what.. I woke up at 7 plus AM that morning ehh!! Felt super energetic. So immediately, I texted Xuan and told her I'm able to meet her. Haha. This was like the fastest recovery I've ever been through in my life. Oh. I told Andy and HuiLing that I'll be able to lead worship for GB this Saturday too!!

I'm really overjoyed by all that has happened that night. Totally.

安静的呐喊
♥12:48 PM



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-The Girl
*Name: Venus Lee Yan 李缘
*Date Of Birth: 20th Feb 1994
*Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=743058322
*E-mail: Venus_lee_yan@hotmail.com
*AKA: Retarded Over Turn Blonde Turtle

-Her Love
*Enjoying God's presence
*Reflecting
*Making song covers
*Making videos
*Looking at the moon
*Studying the meaning behind every song
*Singing
*listening to songs
*My friends
*Pursuing my dreams
*Writing phrases that speaks what I feel about certain matter
*Every talent I'm blessed with
*Listening to people
*Split personality
*Everything God has given me

-Her Detest
*Empty promises
*Lies
*Cowards

-Her Past
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-Exits
*BVSS*
ChUnWeN
JaSoN
TaN hUi JuAn
XiAo HuI
Xi Yu

*DESTINY IMPACT*
DeStInY iMpAcT
GlAdYs
EuNiCe

*DLSS*
BuNcHaNa

*FAMILY*
DaDdY
SaMuEl LeE wEi KaNg

*STARS*
OfFiCiAl JJ LiN jUn JiE 林俊杰's BlOg
Jimmy Lin Chi Ying 林志颖
Show Luo 罗志祥

*SENIORS*
LiNg HuAn

*TEACHERS*
MiSs AnG


-The Talkings


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