Woah!! You saw this?! Hurhurhur. That coming from the lyricist of 《翅膀》,《豆浆油条》,《编号89757》, etc. WOAH~ I was super shocked when I saw that.
Zhang Si Er getting me to attempt in song writing siol~ Heeah. Honestly, apart from being shocked, there's this part of me that's very happy. Above all the test/exam stress.. Yea. I'm happy. But I know I'm still far from really writing a song luh. Got to know my own limits.
Nevertheless, I appreciate that recognition. And also those who liked his comments. I take it as you all agree to what he said and I thank you for your recognition too. Prolly one of these days I'll really write a song.. Haha. Wait till I've got that inspiration bahz.. Heeah.
Oh yea. I didn't know so many people saw this. Even Andy was talking about it after HOP. Haha. Being a lyricist is prolly one of my "part-time" dream. But having so many people agreeing to that statement is really a huge acknowledgement to me. It feels like another level up. Haha.
I'll attempt to write a song but no promise. Heeah. I think the Chorus is always the easiest. It's the verses that leads to the chorus that's my biggest problem. Haha. And my Chinese isn't that fantastic either. Haha. Whatever it is, this made my day. Gonna mug for PR!! PR=Public Relations. Not Permanent Resident. Hahahahah!! XD
安静的呐喊
♥1:20 AM
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Heeah. I'm back~ Gonna mug for Logistics soon >_< but before that!! Let me share with you some photos I took ^__^ I've been travelling to sengkang quite often recently cause of my Integrated Project (IP). For the past few times, I've been there with my group mates except for the latest time. Before I share with you my solo trip to SengKang, let's talk about those time I went with my group mates. Hmmmmmmmm.. Actually~ There's nothing much to talk about. I've only been there with my group mates twice. And Each and everytime we're there, we'll end our day with jumpshots. Haha!! Let me share with you one of my favourite jump shot.
Heeah. In the past, my jumpshots are never this nice. My highest pic would always be either the 2nd or 3rd pic. And I'll always have to edit it. But this is different!! This picture is unedited!! Woohoo!! And this was the first and last jump shot i did that day =D Give thanks to my photographer: Jean. Haha.
On the way back that day, on the bus~ I decided to take a photo of myself cause I felt as though I'm in some winter country. Prolly it's cause of the SMG scarf and the air-con was super cold that night!! Haha. Anywayz~ I really like this picture. If you know me well enough, I'm not one who takes picture of myself all the time. I think it was a good fringe day that day. Haha. And did you notice my natural eyeliner?! Haha. It's not photo effects kaez~
The effects only made it more obvious. Haha. I was telling mum about my natural eyeliner that day and she say it's cause I've got more eyelashes. Lol.
Anyway after lunching with Jerry Yap on Friday, I decided to go back to SengKang. The main reason is actually cause I wanted to re-film the route that we'll be walking for the "Lantern Walk" thingy~ But sub reason is also cause I wasn't really in a good mood that day. Some problems between my mum and dad. Tsk. Everytime parents quarrel, kids are always the first to kenna. Haha.
Don't worry about me. I'm fine now already. Just needed some time alone and sort some thoughts out :]
After filming finish and reached the "Ending point", I looked up into the sky. Immediately, I took out my phone and snap a picture of what my eyes are looking at.
漂走的心就像漂走的云，怎么抓也抓不回..
Instantly, this sentence flashed across my mind. At that very point in time all I heard was the shattering sound of my heart. Oh yea. Did I mention I was listening to my iPod songs and at that very point the song that was playing is 《记得》. Haha. I was destine to cry my hearts out that day.
Anyway, just to update y'all, I've no idea what's going on between my parents. But honestly everything just seems as though my dad had an affair. Prolly it's cause of this thought that every looking at such beautiful clouds, I could still think of such emo stuff. Haha.
Seriously.. I've never cried that bad ever before. Crying not really cause i'm really THAT sad but more of crying out for the Lord. Each every time I think about my dad having an affair (though nothing is confirm up till date), I could sense this devil side of my arising from deep within. It's just not right. And I seriously hate that side of me.
I believe everyone have this good and devil side in them. It's only the matter of how are you going to use the good side of you to kill that devil side of you. But sometimes this devil side is just so strong that you cannot conquer it with your own strength. And I knew I couldn't. I just felt as though I'm going insane any moment if I continue to try to solve this issue with my own strength. TAP ON HEAVEN'S RESOURCES!!
Anyway.. I never knew I had so much tears O_O Lol. Haha. Oh. Thank goodness there wasn't anyone there if not they must have thought that I'm some mad woman who had just escaped from the Mental Hospital or someone suffering from depression. Haha. Don't worry people. I'm perfectly fine now.
After all the crying and stuff I decided to enjoy the breeze. Close friends should know I've got fear of heights. So I decided to do something radical. I got up, stood on the bench and took a picture of my shadow. I thought that was quite nice. But I really spent loads of time gathering up the courage to stand on that bench.
Taaada!! Can you imagine?? I was alone.. Both my hands are stretched out.. So who helped me touch the "capture" button on my phone?? Heeah~ Amazing uh?? That's a secret. Haha!! You need skills~ XD
I was leaving that place when I decided to turn around just to tell that place "I'll be back soon" Haha. It sounds crazy~ Haha. As I was saying~ I turned back.. And the sun was super bright so naturally, I stretched out my hand to block it and I just felt that would look super pretty in a photo so I snap a picture of it again. Heeah ^__^
So that was the end of my latest trip to SengKang. I'll go back for another round of visit after my Mid Semester Test :]
This picture was taken at the bus stop at WCRC quite a while ago. I was with Lynette waiting for our individual buses on one of the Saturdays after DI Encounter. As we were talking/chatting about some stuff, this beautiful God's creation caught her attention. She took my phone and snap a picture of it. Haha.
Wait. I be exact, I held the phone and she touched the "capture" button. Hence, the photographers for this picture are Venus & Lynette. Haha!! Oh. I edited the picture with iPhone apps. But the cloud blur-ish effect is natural. That was really how the cloud looked like that day.
This is another picture I took not long after my mum started ignoring my dad's call and the initial stage of me suspecting my dad having an affair. There was suppose to be lessons that day but I guessed I was just too depressed to even go for lessons. I just felt that I needed some fresh air.
I was intending to bus down to school that day. So I took 188. I was suppose to change to another bus at Clementi fire station but I decided to just take all the way to Harbour Front and so I landed up in Vivo City. Haha.
I was there super early. Like.. 10am?? And there were barely a few shops open. So I just kept walking aimlessly till I walked out of Vivo City, facing Sentosa. I spotted that small plant and decided to take a photo with it. Haha. Yea. that was the sky at Harbour Front :]
Before I dive back into ym books, let me share one last picture with y'all.
I was at the Big Book Shop above Clementi PolyClinic just now. Was just "see-look"ing when this thing caught my attention. Haha. I thought it would be quite funny if I were to put this at my house door. Haha. Kinda Oxymoron feel. Haha.
Alrightz~ That's all for my sharing today. My notes are calling out for me >_< Gotta go~ *yawnz*
安静的呐喊
♥4:44 AM
Sunday, May 27, 2012
I was visiting some of my older post and I saw this post that was posted on 18th Feb 2012. It says
Haha!!. I wonder what drove me to having this wish. Not saying that I don't wish for it anymore~ But it has kinda upgraded to "I wish to get married soon". Haha!! But I don't have a boyfriend now~ Haha. Prolly I've watched too many dramas recently.
You know~ Every drama will end with a happy ending.. The male lead and female lead will just end up getting married or something along that line~ Haha. I was just talking to Jeraldine that day about marriage. I was saying..
I think it's super cool when you're married at the age of 21. And while many of your friends are dating and guys ask to be your boyfriend or something~ you'll reply them "sorry. But I'm no longer available" and you flash out your wedding ring.. Then you'll get to see their super stunned face~ Haha!!
Okay~ Ignore me.. That's just one of my random thought when I was bored. Haha.
Talking about getting married~ What's marriage without a proposal. I was just walking on one of those streets on orchard road that day with mum. And there was this super huge LCD screen that's screening some advertisements and stuff~ So I was just randomly telling my mum, "Mummy!! It's be super cool if my boyfriend propose to me on that LCD screen!! So romantic~" Haha!! And my mum scolded me cause she thinks that I shouldn't be thinking of such stuff at this age..
Hello~ We all grow up and get married one day~ Lee Kuan Yew said that Singaporeans should all be forward looking citizens~ I'm just trying to be one of them~ Haha!! Anywayz.. Mum said I'm "siao" haha. And I told her, "I told you before what~ I've the urge to urge married". Haha!! And she literally roll her at me!! -__-"
Honestly, if I've got a rich boyfriend now~ and he proposes to me~ I might really just get married the moment I turn 21. Haha!! But I don't think this marriage would last. Cause I'll be getting married just to satisfy my desire to run a wedding. Haha!! I should just try to get into mediacorp and become an actress where I can get to play all the funny funny roles that I want to.
Being a bride, acting emo, acting in a breakup scene, acting as a CID officer, etc. Haha!! Oh!! Btw, have I ever told you what is the scene I would desire the most if I were to be an actress?? Let me share with you~ Muuuhahha.. Don't be shocked.
I wish to act in a kissing scene the most. Hahaha!! Prolly cause I've never kissed anyone that I desire to feel the feeling of kissing my boyfriend or something~ Haha. Wait wait.. This makes things sounds like as though my kiss is so cheap. Haha!! NO!!! It's not that~ Prolly cause I've watched too many dramas of Show Luo kissing others in dramas where at times I just wishes I was the female lead. Haha!!!
Okay~ Ignore me~ I'm getting too hyped out. Time to dive back into my books >_< It's accounts & finance paper tomorrow.. But it feels as though I've not learnt a single thing O__O" Ommmooooooooo T_T
安静的呐喊
♥10:10 PM
Trust & Faith
Friday, May 25, 2012
Wow. Life have been.. Hahas. Speechless. I seriously can't wait to just get done and over with 2012. I used to think 2010 was the worst year till 2012 came. Well.. Prolly 2010 was bad cause I lost you. But prolly 2012 is worse cause you are more important than you. If you even get what I mean~
Loads of things have been happening this past 10days or so. It just feels like as though I'm gonna lose you any moment. Everything in this family is just falling out of place. I really can't help but to think that you're really having an affair.
Each and every single thought of you hugging another woman in your arms just makes me feel so disgusted. And I seriously hate it whenever I could sense the anger and hatred coming from deep within me. It's seriously growing too strong to the extend where I can't even bring myself to look at your photo.
I really don't get what wrong have you done to the extend where you have to send "Sorry dear. Please forgive me." to mum. In addition to that, all the funny funny questions you and mum have been "interrogating" me with. Honestly I'd rather not know ANYTHING right from the start. WHAT'S THE DAMN POINT IN TELLING ME THE STORY OUTLINE WHEN YOU HAVE NO INTENTION TO LET ME KNOW THE CONTENT?!
I wish I'm as insensitive as my brother.
At this very stage, I'm very sure that I'm not prepared to take in any truths/information at my end. After so many days battling with the devil, trying to keep myself sane and flushing out all the vulgarities from my dictionary, I just need sometime to cool down and get settled before the next blow hits me in my face.
Yesterday mum was just asking me why didn't I ever have the thought of asking dad to come back to Singapore and get another job or something.. She was like asking me.. What would I do if dad decides to live in Cambodia for good and never return back to Singapore ever again.
But come to think of it, my dad have been working overseas for 6 years or so.. and I've already gotten used to spending only a few days per year with my dad. Don't you think it's a little too late to ask this question after so many years. Why didn't you ask this question right at the start? Did you even know how I felt on the first night that dad wasn't in Singapore by my side? What's the point of asking this redundant question at this very point when it has lost all its purpose?!
God said in the Bible, Psalm 23:4 (ESV)
Even when I must walk through the darkest valley, I fear no danger, for you are with me; your rod and your staff reassure me.
I've never been so desperate for God's strength ever before. I could remember there was this time when I stood in my shower-room just crying like nobody's business. Then I was just began picturing how nice would it be if I'm right beside Him in heaven and He's like just sitting right next to me, watching me cry and throw tantrums at Him, yet God would patiently wait for me to cool down, helping me wipe off my tear and hugging me tight in His arms and whispering softly by my ear "I'm here with you, my child" and I literally heard a soft voice whispering by my physical ear "I'm here with you, my child".
I was so blown off by that soft small still voice and I'm very sure that was His voice.
After that shower, I just feels as though I've washed away all my troubles. I told myself to look at things from a different angle. Honestly it isn't easy when you're caught in difficult and heartbreaking situations. But I thank God for friends around who kept reminding me the promises of God. I did a lot on my part too. Constantly reminding myself that God is on my side, God is with me, God's plan is to proper me and not to destroy me, God is greater than all my problems, God send me through trails not to temp me but to build me up. Temptation comes from the devil. If God is for me, who can be against me?
It may seem easy to say all these but really saying all these in faith is really not that simple. It's written in the bible, each and every time you decide to follow God, the devil will come to attack you, bringing you down and dragging you away from God. Hence it's really important for us to learn how to identify which is from God and which is from Satan.
I trust that God will carry me through this season of storms. I trust in His plans and I believe at the end of the day, He'll give me testimony to share with His people. From now till that day comes, I'll seek Him more and more each day. Do keep me in prayer too if you read this. Not forgetting, I know many more people are keeping me in prayer. Thank God for Lynette, Jeraldine Yap, Eddy, Celine, Gladys and many many more of these brothers and sisters who have been helping me guard my heart :]
Don't judge your situation from where you are. Look at it from God's point of view :)
安静的呐喊
♥3:47 AM
第一时间 Cover
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Heeah. It's finally done :] Hope y'all will like it ^__^
I'm studying at SAC. Oh yea.. STUDYING. Amazing uh? Woke up today and I was like.. "I think today is a study day" haha. Didn't bother to even go to school cause I know by the time lesson ends, I'll be like chui max and nothing goes in.
BUT!! Do Not imitate me!! I'm not setting a good example. Hurhurhur. But well~ At least I've completed my logistic tutorial~ It proves that SAC is a conducive place to study. Hurhurhur.
Anywayz.. It's been ages since I've last shared on my life. Haiz. Have been super busy with school work/assignments. Not forgetting, my Integrated Project!! ROARRRR!!!! Can you feel the stress within me?? Hurhurhur.
Oh yea!! I've finally completed my EST article on "What is worship?" still waiting for Andy to feedback though~ That's like a huge burden off my shoulders. Phew~ Haha!! And just as I thought I can enjoy my weekend, I realise that Isabel is on worship team for DI Encounter again. Haiz... Haha!! It's okay!! It's a privilege to be able to serve God :)
Haish~ It's time to continue with my revision before going off for lunch with my BELOVED GLADYS ZHONG ^__^ byez~
*Name: Venus Lee Yan 李缘
*Date Of Birth: 20th Feb 1994
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*AKA: Retarded Over Turn Blonde Turtle
-Her Love
*Enjoying God's presence
*Reflecting
*Making song covers
*Making videos
*Looking at the moon
*Studying the meaning behind every song
*Singing
*listening to songs
*My friends
*Pursuing my dreams
*Writing phrases that speaks what I feel about certain matter
*Every talent I'm blessed with
*Listening to people
*Split personality
*Everything God has given me
